oh well....

Last night i lost my temper again putting khye to sleep. It was not that he didn't want to sleep, there was another obvious reason. Earlier that night, my mum broke the news of other my sis is expecting. Oh, so two of them are preg but i'm not. I was supposed to be happy for her like the rest but selfish me, i was sad, disappointed, angry, frustrated, envious and all negative feelings & thoughts came at once. Almost immediately, my mood went down. Negative chi followed me all the way home last night and all the way to office today.

I'm still very very hurt.