sight

Hub & i went to Kek Lok Si temple to try out his new cam during CNY. While on the way up to the pagoda, we saw a few beggars sitting begging by the pavement. One particular family drew my attention. A young indian mother with 4 kids sitting on cardboard. The youngest son was almost the same age as Khye, tiny, sleeping peacefully on the cardboard. It was a disturbing sight for me and i was thinking of it whole night and even now. The image still stuck to my mind. Before i had khye, i only felt sorry for these people. Now, i really feel something. I have no idea why but each time i encounter beggars with small kids, it will make me think of how lucky khye is. Or i will imagine my khye is the one sleeping on the cardboard. Ouch, it's a heartbreaking sight.

wait

We were discussing on how to celebrate Khye's bday and what cake to buy. I was surprised that birthday cakes from bakeries cost more than Secret Recipe cakes. RM150 for a number 1 shaped cake, min 3kg. If we were to buy 2 cakes as per plan, it's going to cost us a bomb just for cakes. After a week, we finally decided to order 2 cakes for the bakery near our house and they will deliver them to us on Saturday, one day earlier than the actual birthday. My Khye's birthday falls on CNY eve.

While discussing on which type of cakes to order, i told hubby to just order the ordinary round shape cake to be fair to everybody (our future kids). And his answer caught me by surprised. "That I'll have to think first". When we first got married, i told hubby that i want more than a kid. I used to joke with him, the more kids the merrier during our funerals :P

What does he mean with "That I'll have to think first"?? He knows very well, i've always wanted more kids and that i dun stay 29 forever. Okay, maybe it's my temper that he fears. But he thinks we're going to wait for another 6yrs and then only start trying for a 2nd one? What if it's too late and we have to undergo IVF? I have heard many stories where couples regretted that they didn't plan for a 2nd one earlier. Some couples failed to conceive after waited for too long. If we fail, then khye will be miserable living life alone without siblings.

chubby

Khye is growing fatter & chubby-ier each day, and i can't resist biting his arms and cheeks. Yesterday, he learnt a new trick. He was holding his toys in both hands while trying to stand on by clinging on the sofa. How to stand lar? I grabbed his armpits right on time before he fell backwards. And guess what, he thought it was so funny that he repeated the action – on purpose. Stood up, looked at me, smiled then let go of his hands to see whether I’d catch him in time or not. Smiling so happily, until i had to distract him from the sofa. His crawling speed has increased over the weekend. Now you see him in the living room, the next moment, you will find him crawling towards the stairs or towards our front door.

Anybody care to babysit him for me during the plant shutdown? So cute wor......

23 Dec

Two years ago, on this date i became Mrs.Tee officially. More than a year later, we had this silly boy, Tee Junior.

i can breathe

I decided to take 4 days off in a stretch to stay at home, without Khye. Khye is sent to in-laws' place every morning as usual.

Yesterday, khye woke up at slightly before 7am, right before hubby's alarm went off. Hubby went to work while i bathed and fed khye while waiting for in-laws to come fetch him over. Peace. My day started with a cup of coffee and a nice movie - Hellboy II. We were supposed to watch that since when it was first launched but with Khye around, how to enjoy the show. I even joked with my parents & sisters that i dun have to watch Hellboy cos i have one at home :P Bad mama. After the show, i started with my cleaning tasks, the curtains. Took down the curtains in the living room & spare room for wash. While waiting for the curtains, i cleaned all the drawers and cabinets in my house (downstairs only). The funny thing is, the things found in the tv cabinets are not moved since last spring cleaning, so i just needed to take out everything, wiped and put back everything in the same order. I finally moved all my pics into the new photo album we bought a while ago. I still need one more photo album leh, not enough.

Next was to tidy up food in my kitchen cabinets, re-arranging plates in the cabinets, wiped my oven & water filter..etc. Not forgetting throw away broken plates/spoons and food from the fridge. Cleaned our spare room - windows, fan, light, cabinets.

Took a bathe and ate something before i was back in front of my tv and online chatting :D I did something similar around this time too last year, when i was pregnant. Call me a fool but i enjoy cleaning my house and put everything in order, when i'm home alone. If only i can become a housewife and given monthly allowance & a car to use. I got bored while staying at home last year when i needed to clear my vacation leave. But now, i'm more than happy to do that, as long as khye is sent to in-laws' place. Finally, i'm breathing again.

breathe

My life is a mess now. Especially when he cries non-stop. I have to swallow my food, i have to be in the kitchen after meal to get ready Khye's things. Hubby will have to take care of Khye in the living room. That little fella will be either trying to climb all over him/furniture or fall and knocks his head on the floor. Right after that i only get to watch The Nanny for a good laugh for like 20mins or so then after that i have to express milk before getting ready to bed. Yes, we go to bed before 8.30pm to get Khye to sleep. I practically scream on every night before Khye goes to sleep. It annoys me a lot to hear him cry. I've been hiting his little thighs and arms so often, when i should be soothing him. I'm getting out of control.

Hubby has been really patient with the Khye and I, no complaints and no throwing tantrum like i do. When both us make the house turns upside down, he will still be sitting beside us trying to help. It's kind of unfair to him. His job has stressed him a lot and yet he has to bear with his crazy wife and cranky baby.

Yesterday night, i lost my temper at hubby again. Actually it was just crazy and unreasonable, but i just lost it. The whole of yesterday was the most peaceful day after Khye was born. I had enough sleep from the night before & khye slept for like 3 hours straight after his feed at 10.30am. What more can i ask...but i just had to spoil the day at night. If i were hubby, i think i would have slapped myself. I dunno why i acted the way i am now. My life is a mess, hubby's life is a mess cos of me. I want to send Khye off, i need space to breathe. It's going to be a year and i'm still not getting used to having Khye around.

home

I'm sitting on my bed, surfing net using OUR own broadband, instead of having to search or steal from our neighbours. Remember once upon a time, i talked about having own broadband when i have reached certain limit in writing paid posts? Nope, it didn't work that way. Hubby is footing the bill now :D

This is one of the rare occassion where i get to blog in peace. Khye is sleeping peacefully in his cradle while i'm waiting for hubby to come home. Reading blogs, chatting with friends, how nice. Okay, i hear the door, time to offline and sleep, before Khye wakes up for his second feed. Nite nite.

bookworm

Define bookworm:
i) a book lover
ii) insect that eats books

What do you call a book lover who EATS books?

simple cooking instruction

It's finally time for us to tell mil that she can feed Khye porridge. The reason why we hid from her was cos Khye could not sit properly in the baby walker, he would slough and it's bad for his backbone. Also she definitely cannot handle him on one hand while feeding him using another hand. Half the food may end up in his notrils like what happened when i first fed him :P

I wanted to tell her to cook a very very simple porridge with meat, spinach and carrot using our newly bought mini slow cooker. But our conversation lasted for quite long as predicted. She got over-excited.

Me : Ma, can start to feed Khye with porridge tomorrow liao.
Mil : Yes yes, I already wanted to ask you about that bla bla bla. By right should start already..bla bla bla bla. I will use stove to cook porridge faster.
Me : No need lar, can cook with slow cooker, i bought a mini slow cooker already. Easier.
Mil : Cook with stove also can mah, will turn soft and starchy too.
Me : Okay lar, anything also can, as long as soft enough for him. Then put...
Mil : (interrupted) I will put potato, i will mix different veggies....
Me : (trying to stop her) No no, put meat, spinach and carrot enough. Then...
Mil : (interrupted) Ok ok, then throw away meat, spinach and carrot, let him have the porridge.
Me : No no, put spinach & carrot then blend so that he can finish up everything. Dun blend the meat.
Mil : No need to blend one, just cook until it become soft then can smash them up already.
Me : That way also can, but blend better, easier to digest.
Mil : I try lar, see which way. Can add fish also, not the poisonous ones.
Me : Fish is ok, as long as no other seafood.
Mil : I already wanted to ask you about feeding him porridge..bla bla bla....
Me : Ok ok, so tomorrow i prepare the slow cooker and ikan bilis.
Mil : Actually, can use stove, no need to blend, everything will become soft and edible one.
Hubby: Just listen to her (referring to me) enough.
Mil : Cook porridge, add meat, carrot & spinach.

See? It's simple, rite? *phew*

pre/postnatal depression

If that is what you call it. My mood has not yet improved since i was pregnant until now. 2008 passes like a breeze and before i knew it, it's already end of Oct. My Khye's 1st bday is another 3 months time, according to Chinese Lunar Calendar. One good thing is my weight has gone down and down, 53.5kg now thanks to sleep deprivation, taking care of Khye and keeping my sanity in check.

Just a short update on my hurricane life:

1st
Bedtime for Khye was painful for both of us since Aug. No matter how much effort spent in patting or singing, Khye just didn't want to sleep at all. We even made it a habit to wipe him clean just before bedtime, to make him more comfortable. But whenever the clock struck 9pm, both of us would be in fear. Our bedtime has always been 12am-1am, and at times we would only get to sleep at 2-2.30am but ended up waking up at 4-5am cos he'd wake up and cry for attention. I seriously doubted that our room was haunted. After asking a few people for, we finally went to BM to seek help from Kuan Yin. Kuan Yin told us that we as his parents should not start to fear Khye when the clock strikes 9pm. As a conclusion, we're the culprits for him not able to go to bed easily as it has already registered in our mind that he'll not sleep easily. A night after the visit to Kuan Yin temple, Khye finally settled down and slept at 10.30pm almost everyday, peacefully. If you want to know how to find this place, you may leave me a comment.

2nd
People just don't understand why mainland people need to beat the 7pm jam on bridge. Have they not noticed the long stretch of lorries queuing in front of Tesco & e-Gate? Have they not stuck on the bridge for hours for unexplainable reason? Okay, some people may argue that we should get a property in island to avoid the hassle. I like mainland, so wat?! I like my double-storey house on mainland, i like the idea of walking straight into my house without waiting for lift, i like the idea of not having to walk so far to throw my rubbish. Cannot ar? Just becos of the stupid jam, i have to get a RM1M property in island? Stupid!

3rd
I like rushing so much. I like to rush while feeding my Khye. I like to rush when eating. I like to rush when bathing. I like to rush when i clean my house. I like to rush when i'm working. I like to rush here and there. I like to rush, if you dun, stay away from me lor.

4th

Khye is still slightly underweight after the doc visit last saturday. Must be due to the lack of sleep since few months ago. The rascal is becoming more and more active and a super duper busybody. He wants to touch and taste everything in his sight. Remote controls, bags, syilings, walls, doors, iron grills, chairs, etc. Dirty fella. The second pic is he trying to pass motion. I wonder how is he going to feel when he reads my blog next time, with his mama publishing all his funny photos :P :P